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Thursday, 29 December 2011

  • A conversation between a see-lai, a whacky programmer, a therapist/economist, and a waskabbb

    Towards the end of 2011, the four people met for a end-of-the-year gathering

     

    See lai: Hey you guys! I was at the Parkn'Shop and I saw this really good deal and hence I bought a dozen of fish for our gathering tonight!

    Therapist-slash-economist: Man haven't you heard of the law of diminishing returns? You sure need to come to my session sometime this week.

    See lai: Sure I did pay attention in class back then, but then as a See lai the feeling of "the more the better" and the feeling of inadequacy if I don't buy everything reign over the logical self!

    Whacky programmer: Echos come to session. Echo echos!

    Waskabbb: Waskabbb you whacky programmer please talk like a human being!

     

    Whacky programmer: If(i=talk like a human being), echo(human being). Else(need therapy come to session). i=1 so we should be meeting at the session instead? Man you're of no fun.

    Waskabbb: Sorry, born waskabbb, forever waskabbb.

    Therapist-slash-economist: You sure about that? Things could stem later in life though. 

    Waskabbb: What are you now?

    Therapist-slash-economist: To make each letter reflects a little more than the gibberish it's representing now, I shall call myself T or E. Ah-ha, economically efficient. Sure enough, anorexia could be inherited but as in your case, hm. It's kinda like there used to be a trigger & a catalyst. The trigger started and the catalyst accelerated the situation, creating a sort of illusion of optimal, and yet the illusion doesn't last. Kinda like magic doesn't it, only that it could be fatal. And when the reality hits, trigger stopped. It actually pulled back because trigger's initial objective was to reach the optimal. Nonetheless, the catalyst, the accelerator with no bond and sequence in itself, works by providing an alternative reaction pathway, for you in your case. Hence with the accelerator around, as long as a slight feeling of inadequacy lightens, the feeling explodes. Way around? Stay away from the accelerator, or simply get yourself waskabbb.

    Whacky programmer: And you call this economies of what? Simply put, # persons at same spot=i, if(i

     

    See lai: Thanks to you all, I have no idea what you guys were talking about just now. But sure I do feel better after all these gibberish talks. Hm. Maybe cos' the fish is ready.

    Waskabbb: You know I don't eat.

    E: I'm sure each of the rest of us could have one, the most.

    See lai: Then how about the extra 9 fish?

Tuesday, 11 October 2011

  • Letter to mom

    Dear mom,

    after my consideration i have decided to give an extra $1000 to my friend who helped make up for the night for Willa, Me, and You. That day i gave a $2000 red pocket to her because a full day professional make up costs $6000 or more. That afternoon i found that i did not have enough cash on hand, as i just gave you $7800 in the morning. hence, i asked if you could borrow $1000 to me.

    so that $2000, 1/2 was paid by you. i was very aware of this.
    however, something happened that night where our aunt, Anita Mui, sat into the bridal room, used my friend's make up, and took away stuff such as fake eye-lashes etc. it was a very embarrassing situation for me as my friend is actually patrick's friend's ex-girlfriend. while she is very cool about it i do feel embarrassed especially anita mui criticizes the makeup the hair etc right on the spot when my friend is here. so i was thinking maybe we should give more pocket $ to my friend.

    my friend, patrick's friend's ex-girlfriend, is a very nice person. she actually told me not to pay her any money beforehand. she did a good hair and make up for willa and me and you as well. the make up on you was good to be frank, before anita mui criticizes you and asked you to put on fake eyelashes. you were happy too, i could tell, from the smile you have when you looked into the mirror. it was after anita mui that makes everything turned around. she said willa is fat as well.

    i know i couldn't do anything about it, and i really hate her. from the bottom of my heart.
    why, and how, could someone as mean as she?
    she was walking around the floor as if she is THE mother of the bride. even our cousin, Phei Chen, thought she was leon's mother (since she knows she's not Willa's mother)
    even the waiters thought she's the mother

    do you know what happened when she was sitting in that table?
    patrick was sitting the other side of me, and she asked if we would join her "extravagent luncheon" next morning.
    i said, no la, we'd probably eat with patrick's familiy that morning
    she said to patrick, "你叫埋你啊媽黎食晏 law!"
    i 細細聲同佢講, "patrick 媽咪爹地過左身 ga la"
    she didn't get it, and said, "咩話? 唔係ah, 佢爹o地好翻所以先翻黎唔係咩?"
    i said, no, they already passed away
    she STILL said, 係咩? 唔係woh, 你唔係話佢爹o地好翻la 咩? 佢媽咪唔係響香港咩?
    i said, no, 佢地已-經-過-左-身"
    she STILL keep asking, 幾時ge 事? aiya 乜係咁啊 咁你叫佢屋企人都黎食飯啦!

    i said no la, they have a lot of relatives so no la etc

    我唔明, E個咁o既女人, 點解要值得尊重
    and what i dun understand is, when i was young, you used to call her 死八婆
    點解, 因為近年o既事, 你仲要同E個女人 hang out? 買野比佢, 又將佢朋友 irene 放得如此重要

    我唔明, 點解所有人的位置都在我之上
    其實, 我坐邊, 只要是和屋企人在一起, 我就好OK 了
    我明白編位的難處, 但是, 可以猛車邊和你們近點點嗎?
    點解
    當我見到第18臺是如何的遠, 當成家人都編在一起時
    我有幾難過, 你未必會明白
    因為我口講出來, 也只會end up 和你爭吵
    對我來說, 這不是一餐便飯, 是妹妹的婚禮
    而且
    如果我是鈞顥的話
    我知道
    這跟本不會發生

    我也知道
    就這件事
    你會在大家面前說我的不是

    反正, 大家也不曾覺得我是什麼孝順乖女 anyway

    剛才你問我給了我朋友多$1000 red pocket 未
    我說未, 但或者不給了, 請她吃餐好D的飯算了, 因為我洗左過萬了唔想再花錢
    你想我還你 $1000, 你說, 我可以問呀蓓 law 翻呀,
    i won't ask her back for what i have spent on her, because this is what i should do, it's just that i dun wanna spend more
    then, you have this black face on you
    because you think, i took $1000 from you (even though you did mention we split the makeup cost, guess you were just being nice?)

    to be true
    i dunno why
    it's just my feeling
    that, when you'd be totally fine when Matt asked you get him a $3xx gym membership
    you wouldn't for stuff on me
    and of course i know why

    i dun wanna see you think i take advantage from you. i really dun want u think like that. no worries. i will give that $1000 red pocket to my friend, and you don't have to give me back.

    問題是
    點解我的位置
    是那麼的後

    爸爸說
    我不應和你吵
    也常說
    算啦, 由得佢啦
    唔好嘈啦

    其實, 我也好想 let go
    我也不明白為何一切一切
    都會讓我那麼mung, 那麼嬲
    那麼在乎

    或許我不應再在乎
    學鈞顥話齋
    嬲佢都係咁ga la
    學呀琳呀蓓
    想講
    但真係唔敢講

    我也很累
    也不想再吵了
    你說什麼便什麼吧
    as long as you are happy, we'll do what you want us to do

    you had a good make up that night, believe me. and i like how you look at yourself in the mirror. that's what a happy mom should look.
    sorry to make you angry all the time
    u never see me a sweet person
    because i am never sweet
    i wish someday you could
    it probably wouldn't happen, but i wish someday, you will like me like your other kids

Saturday, 01 October 2011

  • I mind

    介意
    因為這不是一餐便飯
    是我妹妹的婚宴
    介意
    因為這是我在你心目中的位置是如何的編排
    因為我知道如果我是弟弟, 編排將會完全不同
    介意
    因為你介意朋友多於我們的感受
    因為你忘了爸爸
    因為爸爸自己也忘了自己
    因為大家只有私下怨, 無人說給你聽

    也介意
    因為
    從來
    只有我介意和小氣

    因為你說過
    咁多個細路
    最憎係我

    好像是那兩個月
    7年前我入院再入精神病院那兩個月
    才感受過你好像有著緊過我
    還是自己精神錯亂下的幻覺
    真的不記得了

    明天是妹妹的大日子
    我希望的
    除了是她的幸福外
    還有是懂得放棄
    一直所想的東西

Thursday, 01 September 2011

  • In less than a week Patrick is going to Shanghai tomorrow, Friday afternoon, for the weekend. What for? Business, his friends and he is starting a business plan on trading in China.

    How fun. Nice. Because work, can't wait.
    I can.

    ***
    Sure enough, my logical mind tells me there's more things than a relationship. And sure enough, if that's what has to be done, that's what has to be done.
    Sure enough, having been waited for 10 months and 5 days, another 2,3 days wouldn't make a difference.

    I know all the above. I really do.

Tuesday, 30 August 2011

  • Day 2 and a half

    It's just day 2 and a half and I am back to eating alone at home again.
    Great.

    ***
    Started a sudden brochure insert request at 4pm and finished up at 8.
    四頁A4
    連寫連 design

    唔計有 event
    以前我打死都唔會留響 office 留到8pm的
    雖然8pm又唔係好夜

    但係, 反正, 在家明明可以有人都係無人, 翻屋企做乜呢
    和朋友要傾公事所以唔可以同我一齊
    It's a valid reason actually
    Just slightly tickling as it's Day 2 and a half

     After, you know,
    10 months and 5 days

    ***
    不過我都好叻呀, 要讚自己呀
    四頁紙, 關於 SAP Business Intelligence Manufacturing Analytics
    了解整個 software, 寫出來解釋比人聽
    畫埋圖, 那幅很複雜的圖
    四個鐘
    咁叻
    唔可以唔開心呢



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